creeping through the forest, i imagine that the deeper i go into it the deeper i go into my mind. my mind was just like a forest. some parts open and beautiful and others burnt and dark. some thick and filled with thorns that grab at your skin, pull until you stop and remove yourself from the plants grip. some things fragile that crept through the forest, deer. like small peaceful thoughts that were the simplest of thoughts. then others lurked slowly scavenging. bringing a dark pull that was a headache behind them. i placed my hand into the soft squishy mud. colors danced then disappeared in front of my eyes. black spots that looked like bugs flied past my eyes. i tried to fallow them but they flew out of my vision before i could. i spoke aloud and asked myself what was happening to me. even though i knew exactly what was happening. i have known always. even when i was little. i fell to the ground and my mind wandered back to then. a little girl out in the back yard in the dark. she sits at the fence looks deeply into the two dogs on the other side. she begins to sing. she sings her thoughts and about everything around her. the reflection of innocence. the dogs quit there excited barking. they lie down and begin to rest. the birds start making little relaxed noises in there nest. a cat emerges and begins to purr and meow. the dogs do not even lift there heads to take notice of it. i felt so strange. the thoughts of when i was little came in pictures not words and then all sense of words disappeared. i turned and lay on my back. i looked strait into the rain. i could see each drop like a small prism creating rainbows in side them selves. the leaves look like there under a black light. the sky is no longer blue but a deep reddish purple color. the trunks of the trees almost black. this peace is quickly jerked away from me by a rush of adrenaline then all my muscles contract at once. my nose and ears begin to hurt incredibly, like when you blow your nose. i felt like my sinuses were going to pop with pressure. then i saw my face in front of my eyes and i was confused. just the bridge of my nose but it was not where it was suppose to be. then my gums felt the same pressure and my teeth began to hurt. then i understood. i understood that my face was stretching out . the thought stop came to my head but i quickly pushed it away. i was done not knowing. i let it happen. i looked at my arms underneath me and i watched them jolt forward. it was not a normal movement and i realized that it came from my shoulders. then everything went black and i tasted blood from my mouth and nose run down my snout. i could not see or hear but i could feel the incredible pressure on my body. then there was relaxation. i had no idea where i was, what i was, or if i was. i tried to move my arm but it did not move the way i wanted it to. the ringing in my ears slowly died down and i could here the rain and crickets. why was i hearing crickets, i didn't hear them before? then sight came back and everything was red, orange, and gray. i looked up at the sky and it looked so dark compared to the world around me. pitch black when everything else was a light orange. then my eyes found the moon. it was between half and full and it was a dark crimson red. then something moved in me and i rose up and howled. i have never howled such a howl. so loud and deep. then i looked to the ground and saw paws where i felt my hands were. i moved my fingers and the toes moved. around the paws was thread like material. i realized that it was long locks of hair. my hair. i went to lift my hand to feel my head and i fell over. i could only think about if it would grow back or not. then i thought if i would grow back or not. then i took note of my body and it was that of a dog or wolf. i could not tell the difference. i could still taste blood im my mouth and could feel a small amount of pain. then nausea hit me and i threw up. i studied it and it mostly consisted of blood. then i felt annoyance and quickly pulled the cloth off my back by wiggling. once it was off i ran into the new world i had unlocked and thought about nothing of my human life.